CAMAS — Strangely enough, it took the spectre of death for John Kay’s artistry to reach the peak he’d always wanted to achieve.
Kay, 68, has been writing poetry and doing photography all his life. “I can create a beautiful photograph, but I didn’t always feel connected with the result,” he said. He often won juried contests, he said, but still: “I had no individual style. I couldn’t find my own way.”
And while Kay has been publishing serious and admired poetry for decades, he started feeling like his poems also felt too derivative of his influences, he said. They were long and rambling, exploring and searching — the kinds of poems you start without knowing where the ending is. That’s the prime directive of writers like beloved Oregon poet William Stafford — but it wasn’t quite right for Kay, he said.
It was disease that helped him find his real vision, he said.
Kay’s new book of poetry, “This Particular Kiss,” was published this year by Pearl Editions of Long Beach, Calif., and won the 24th annual Pearl Poetry Prize. Kay, a Long Beach native, takes satisfaction knowing that “a local boy” was the final winner of that prestigious prize — before the award and the literary journal that sponsored it shut down after 45 years.